well.. i know all of we have many problems. whatever they are. and we always try to solve it one by one or even by all. it makes u crazy sometimes. we know how it feels.
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one thing disturbed me from last night.
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i never wanna be a trouble for someone. i always try to make they proud of me. at least, i don't wanna make their life pressed down, coz of me.
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but this time, i can do nothing.
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nothing.
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i don't know what i have to do, what i can do, when the long ways, wide seas, and high skies are among of us.
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too many whispers around me to make a rest of the time. but, it's hurt, stupid, and selfish.
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