Christmas Eve 2010

Hey, it's Christmas Eve!!
What a great night..i never felt like this before..u know why?coz i didn't have anything to celebrate in December at my house..
So i call this: My Great Christmas Time..
Although i'm in another city, with another people, and everything is different from i thought before, but it feels so amazing and great..
I can celebrate my Lord's birthday without any fear, i give some gift for the people i loved.
U know, this won't be the Blue Christmas like the last years are..
I'm not alone and i can hear the Christmas songs in the whole house..i feel in peaceful..
And the best part, i still have some free time to talk much with Him as usual in Christmas Eve.. :D

Well, i miss my home..

I gave Kaleb a gift..something that he wants from some weeks ago..hope he will like it.
Then he said he doesn't give me anything, but it doesn't matter..
Coz he's my greatest and sweetest present to me..
He said so! :D

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My Precious Days in Central Java

it was started on Saturday, Dec 18 2010.
it was a great journey and unforgetable memory.
i like the fresh air, i like some kinds of their food,

we can see the Merbabu mount from here..

i like the church, togetherness, and all of them.
them means to Kaleb's family. they're friendly and funny.
but i'm speechless to make they know me more.
i don't know why i can't talk so crowdy as usual.
but however, i enjoy these days..
especially with Kaleb, i can know him more.
well, i'm trying to be myself, cheer up myself.
i didn't find any reason why i shut my mouth up on the days before. :D

i ate so many foods here!
mie acar, pecel belut, so'un, soto, etc..
they're special food in Central Java.
i'm in Salatiga right now. in Kaleb's family home.
sometimes we went to Solo to meet their big family.
their family really "big" !! :D
and after this Christmas, we will go to the beach in Jogja.
just the teens, without parents this time..
and i can't wait patiently for the wonderful day in a year..
Christmas !
i'll tell u then about the Christmas time..
it will be really excited.. :)

well,
i love him more..
day by day, i feel it more.
in some minutes of my day, i think about my life sometimes.
when will i go back to my hometown and continue my study.
but i can't assure these things because i can't stand to be far from him.
even for three years..
he even can't stand to have no meet in a day!
let God see, he accepted me with all i am.. he's not rough.
he's kind, friendly, and funny. he likes baby and animal.
he loves his family and cares of all.
i even can't see his dark side anymore.
i know he has a large size of his body but i think it doesn't matter.
as far as we know he's still healthy and his lifestyle's good.
i fall in love deeply with that guy, just the way he is..
hope he did the same way to me also.
so we can do anything together forever! :)

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A Love Letter

Hahay Sweet November ~
these nights were full of memories.
it's raining but felt so warm. especially when u spent it with the one who u love truly madly deeply.
i never imagined those things will come to me. the great love i ever felt from someone i believe.
u know how beautiful it was when we were falling in love. the attention, the kisses, the laugh.
and no one wants a kind of this story ended. i do too!

everyone around me has happy and sad stories of their lives. and u can't say "owh, i haven't!"
we like the scenes which full of warmth and happiness, who laughs and smiles.
but we can't delete the tears and sadness scenes from the same part of life.
the conflicts or madness from everywhere. they're balanced by God to us! believe it ~
and i wanna thank God, my parents, my dear, my friends, everyone in my life.
u were mentioned in my prayer every single of my nights. i never lie about this. :)
and special for the one who truly i loved, i love you..
i don't know what another words to tell u how much i love u in my life..
i have nothing to ask u staying in my life. just do it as your heart says.

Yours..

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Hi, October!

hello, my blog .
long time no fill you with my dumb words .
a month has passed by and so many things changed .
i don't know how i can tell you one by one these incredible moments .
there were so much breathe to take in and out .
i'm growing but why my body is still tiny? lol
but it doesn't matter while i'm having my days .
and everything seems okay .

give thanks !
i'm so grateful :)

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Solving by Yourselves

this is one of my creature . i made in when i was in college , during my 2nd semester .

there u can see the complication of two human beings' heart, a girl and a boy's . they have to solve their problem by themselves to find one love at the end . so they're not two anymore . but ONE in God's love .

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God is Great

there are some targets in this year that i have to reach in my life .
i finished the first target today . not too hard . :)
now, is the second target . God is great.! He helped me by my friend's dad .
he will give us what we need and will always support our bussiness .
just wait the day when it will be done . i'm hoping so much .
next, i just need saving my money well to reach the next targets .
and my time is just this year . i don't know what will happening next year .
so i'll make it done soon . God bless us . i know . :)
although we face many troubles and problems, someday we can success ..
success by ourselves and our hardwork . well, it won't be useless .
owh .. i can't imagine my dreams will come true.!
thx, God .. >.<

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Last Night Moment

satu bulan percobaan cukup sulit juga .
di satu sisi aQ ngerasa gagal coz gx bs mnjadi guru yg baik bwt mereka .
tapi di satu sisi aQ ngerasa lega coz "beban" yg mnyebabkan pnyakitQ kambuh akhirnya ilang juga .
di satu bulan itu, aQ mncoba utk biasain diri ma kegiatan yg gx biasa itu .
apa pun yg bkin aQ pusing n stress aQ anggap sbg pelajaran .
akhirnya pelajaran pertama selesai juga .
aQ mw cari pelajaran laen, dgn karakter anak yg berbeda .
gpp dhe klo stress lg, tp jgn sering" az .
yg pnting k'depannya aQ akan brtumbuh n jadi guru yg baik .

btw, msh trngiang" d'kepalaQ ne ..
knp y aQ mw jadi guru.??
hmmmm ...

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I Wonder

why every man that i met always say the same thing to me.?
i'm wondering . what's on their heads.??
they met me n grew the love in me . then they'll leave me within it .
just with a reason : i shouldn't waiting them so long .
just because of the time . coz the time isn't right to be together .
do u wanna kill me slowly like this.?!
what a pity girl i am .
still wondering . what could it be when i close all doors for all .

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Love is.. (part 1)

Simple things of love .. never forget this :)



UPDATE: i'll give you more! check this out ;)

http://the-preciousdays.blogspot.com/2012/02/love-is.html

Love is ..

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Love is ...

Love is ..

source: gocomics.com

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When I Fall in Love

L♥VE is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. 

It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

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Sleeping Child

sleeping child

what a cute boy he is .

u see.?

he was sleeping in a market of Taman Anggrek Jakarta , on the troll .
we saw it and can't stand to let his cute face not captured .

he's like Boboho . lol


owh.. what a cute boy .

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My Sweet18

Monday, 25 July 2010 .

i was hanging out with Jeff . i didn't know that he and my friends have a secret plan for me to celebrate my birthday although it's late, but not too late . :)


oh my God .. i looked so ugly there .


but thanks a lot for my nice friends ..

Chryst,
ko Daud,
Jeff,
and Hendra .


u're

u.n.f.o.r.g.e.t.t.a.b.l.e .


:)

unforgettable moment

capture it.! jepreeett.!! lol

what a surprise .......

owh .. chocolate cake.! u know what i like .. :D

yummy strawberry.!

what's at my hand.?

some1 wrote something on my hand.!

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My Life in Pontianak City

these are my sweet memories with my friends in Pontianak City.

........

lovely Gamaska FKIP Untan . this picture was taken after we arrived at Pontianak City from Pasir Panjang in Leadership Retreat moment . it was a fascinating experience . n i love them all .

me n Vania. well, i miss her ; her madness . lol

from left: mami Erla, me, dd Friscka, papi Fidelis; Joseph Family in English Class . lol

this picture was taken without my permission . at Solaria :)

this picture was taken when i'm in the trip to Samudera Beach with my scoutingg friends . miss them so much

Paskibra Sekolah tahun angkatan 2006 :)

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My MJ

when i was in TMII Jakarta, i bought a little cute turtle . it's female and i named her MJ (Miss Jeff) .
i loved her so much . i cared about her in my free-time of work .


but in the 16th day , i lost her when i left her with Doggy (Chryzt's turtle) for sunbathing .

i miss them until now .

me and MJ

where do u go.?? :'(

My lovely MJ ...

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Show Off

at restroom, Taman Anggrek

look at my shirt! PANDA!!

at Christ Cathedral in FC Fiesta

at Balai Sarbini

at my room . lol

at Fun n Food, Gading Serpong

goin' crazy ~~

 

 

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Lovely Women

Women are like apples on tree. 

The best ones are at the top of the tree. 

The boys don't want to reach for the good ones, 

because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. 

Instead they get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't that good but easy. 

So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them 

when in reality they are amazing. 

They wait for the right guy to come along. 

The one who is brave enough to climb to the top of the tree!

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Unpredictable Plan

inikah cinta baru yang Q temukan kini.?

aQ berusaha tidak melihat ke belakang lagi .

tidak mengharapkan apa pun yang tidak jelas .

tidak menunggu-nunggu lagi .

inikah rencana berikutnya dari Tuhan.?

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Love Letter To Heaven

God, strengthen me please ..

let me free from this doubtfulness .
let us do the best for You in this world .
i will change just for You .
i really miss Your hug .
i want to be Your side again .
You know how much i love You
but You know how often i hurt You .
then forgive me and i'll be better .
cure my heart, God ..
lead me in my way back to You .
when i lost everything, i know
i still have You in my life .
i love You . really miss You , my JC .
i feel You filled my empty heart now .
i'll change . day by day .
i give You my best everyday .

with love,

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Happy Birthday

aQ uda 18 taooon!
thanks a lot, God ^_^
gak terasa .. perasaan aQ baru dpt sweet 17teen Q kemarin d .. haha
hari ini sweet 18teen .. hahaha

walau tgh malam tadi sempat bercucuran air mata,
n paginya mata jd bngkak
tp uda gpp kok . itu sbg pelajaran yg berharga az buatQ .
plong bgt rasanya
surat izinQ uda beres . tgl cabuuttt!
truz smpat maen lg di mal .
truz diajak makan bareng d'Serasan .
so sweeeett~~
naik kapal jln" di Kapuas . haha
aQ senaaaanngg .. :D
sblm berperang lg . wkwk
semuanya uda siap . tgl bkin plan berikutnya
hari ini abis"an dl . puas"in senangnya
semoga aja ga ujan . amiinn .
tenqkyuuuuuuuuu, Lord.!! ^_^

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Classic Poetry

God knocked our door and we opened it.
He made a meet between us, not by eyes.
He planned our journey without known by us.
but He surely made us understand what the true love is.
and i hope this never last. coz i don't wanna lost you. i don't wanna be farther from you.
i’ve gave all my heart for you . so i want you to keep it well, with never ever leave me. 

promise me.
say we'll pass it n always together in His way.

for God never regret to knocked our fragile door.

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If a Guy Thinks Like This

1. They always smell good even just a shampoo
2. They always know where a girl had to lean her head on our shoulder.
3. The way they enter into the guys arms comfortably.
4. The way they kiss someone who makes the world seem far more beautiful.
5. The way they eat is so funny.
6. Many hours they need to get dressed, and apparently the results are very impressive.
7. They are always warm, even though the weather outside was very, very cold.
8. They always look good no matter what dress they wear.
9. The way they try to be praised.
10. The way they argue is so funny.
11. The way their hands reached our hands.
12. Their smiles.
13. We always feel happy to see her ideas about the timing to call us, especially after we fight.
14. The way they say, We do not argue anymore, okay? although an hour later ....
15. The way they kiss when you doing good with them.
16. The way they kiss you when you say I love you.
17. the way they seen ur attentions..
18. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
19. The way they apologize for crying over something trivial.
20. The way they hit us and expect us to feel pain.
21. Then the way they apologize when she hurt us (Although we do not want to admit it hurt).
22. The way they say,I miss you.
23. How we miss them.
24. The way their tears make you want to change the world so they do not hurt anymore.

However, even if we love them, hate them, expect them to die, or we will die without them ...
does not really matter. Because, after they entered our lives, no matter what people see about them.
they are everything to us.
When you look into their eyes, deep into the soul, and we say millions of words without making a sound,we know that our lives are sipping from their heartbeat. We love them for a million reasons.
It was not related to the mind, but with heart. With feelings. Just a feeling.
If our love is just a desire to own, it could not be called love...

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Seandainya

seandainya waktu yg kita pny bs kita hitung

bs kita tahu, kita hidup sampai kpn

brp taon lg, brp bulan lg, brp minggu lg

brp hari lg, atau bahkan brp jam lg

kita pasti akan melakukan apa yg kita inginkan

akan mnyelesaikan apa yg blm selesai

dan tinggal menunggu waktu terakhir itu tiba

kita tau apa itu knyataan

yg membuat "seandainya" tadi menjadi mustahil

dan membuat kita menunda apa yg ingin kita lakukan

membiarkan apa yg blm selesai

kenyataan

trlalu sulit utk diterima

tapi klo gak diterima

hidup kita juga gak brarti apa"

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That's Life

after i found a job in another place
i'll go from here
live by myself
i promise
i think it's better
n that's what they want
so we can take our way by ourselves
that's life

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Reminder

something new. huh.?

it's hard but we have to

honestly, i really can't pass those precious times easily

i really didn't matter about this long path

coz i've kept all of mine for him perfectly

now i'm just like losing my way

my shelter . my treasure

i successfully lost

to the ring

to the dolls

ect

i still have it in my room

but the main thing he gave for me

now it's gone

it's not here anymore

is it right.?

do i have to wait him.?

while i'm in my career

i know we said this everytime

"let God plan the best for us"

i know i have to have a faith

strongest faith to face this all

but my heart can't lying

i know someday we will find our mate

yeah, our mate

if we have

i just wanna remind me

that i have a great love story

for 6 months 2 days

or may be until now

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Speechless

aQ musti gimana lg sekarang?
semua kata uda abis Q pake.
dan sekarang ga ada lg yg bs mencerminkan isi hatiQ.
kadang aQ tertawa ndri.
melihat diriQ yg sekarang ini.
luar biasa berbeda dan mengherankan.
tp juga luar biasa ajaibnya.
haha.
sekarang aQ bingung bgt. (dr dlu gt x!)
pgn bgt bicara seharian ma someone.
buat tumpahin isi hati.
1 hariiii az.
tp di saat aQ dpt ksmptan itu,
aQ mlh tak bisa brkata apa"..
yg Q pkirkan hny ingin bersama someone itu.
stlh itu, hatiQ pun plong tanpa satu curhatan pun.
mgkn tepatnya, aQ mngharapkan kehadiran someone aja..haha
lebay amat sih kata" Q..
ckckck.
aaahh..

di samping semua hal" yg ada di kepalaQ,

aQ kangen bgt ma dy.

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My Dear

banyak juga ya curhatanQ di:
~ diaries (diary lebih dari 1!)
~ laptop (di folder yg rahasia dan terpercaya . hahaha)
~ blog ini
~ kertas" yg berceceran di lantai kamar
~ angin yg lewat dari jendela kamar
~ sahabat" dkk

tp ternyata apa yg Q bagikan itu semua hny sebuah omong kosong .

coz curhatan yg ter-rahasia , ter- , ter- , ter- , dan bla bla bla ,

hanya ada di satu tempat .

di hati Tuhan .

siapa yg tau isi hati Tuhan.??

isi hati gw aja lu pada kagak tau ,

apalagi pny Tuhan .

wkwkwk ..

wahai , blog .

tampung aja deh apa yg ada .

drpd sepi .. haha

but i still luv u so much.!

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Welcome Back

hi, welcome me back!
u know,
I MISS U SO MUCH, my bloooooogg .. :')

there were so many things happened in these month
well , some of them are hard to tell. n the bright side, of course they all are!
still the same with my study n my job
still the same with the condition of my house
the different one, is just about love ~ (classic story)
well. should i call this "broken heart"??
ask God, please

i'm speechless
really really really really speechless
coz all of the words that were out from my mouth are WRONG.!
always be the mistakes. whatever they are
they are not pointed by me as the trouble-maker
coz, well, u know. this is the world!
the out-of-mind world
it can make a headache on a lifetime of yours if u didn't open ur eyes widely.!

i'm here
to tell the colors of life. especially of mine . :)
never mind about ur opinion
this is the fact

i'll tell u something that u never think about me
but, then

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Salah Lagi

Happy Easter..

Tapi aQ tak yakin ini adalah Easter yg happy buatQ. sama spt yg Yesus dkk rasakan. Tiga tahun terakhir ini, di mana aQ dalam tahap pendewasaan iman, selalu gagal dalam ngadepin cobaan yang selalu memuncak pada hari raya Paskah. selalu.! padahal bulan ini aQ ingin sekali bisa melawan iblis yg ada dalam diriQ. tapi ampe detik ini, aQ belom berhasil. aQ malah jadi stress berhari-hari dan semuanya pun berantakan. aQ tak selera makan berhari-hari, tak pulank rumah seharian, kamarQ bagai tempat pesinggahan aja dan tak terawat. jadi makin stress deh. bego ya..

aQ ingin curhat. benar-benar curahin semua isi hatiQ sekarang. tapi aQ tak punya nyali utk menghadap kembali Dia yg telah aQ jauhi sekian lama. aQ hanya ingin curhat sama Dia aja. tapi yg aQ lakukan cuma nyakitin Dia terus menerus. aQ lakukan dengan sadar. dan semua hanya karena keinginan yang egois. keinginan untuk dimengerti, didengerin, dan pegang idup sendiri.. aQ mulai tak bisa bedain yg mana yg benar n yg mana yg salah. sekian lama hidup di bawah tekanan seperti itu, yg aQ tau hanya "semua perbuatanQ salah".. ini salah, itu juga salah. aQ hidup dalam bayang-bayang akan ketakutan melakukan kesalahan. bahkan sebelum melakukan apa pun aQ uda merasa bersalah n akan disalahkan. aQ seperti ketakutan menjalani hidup. terlalu banyak pikiran untuk memilah dan memilh antara yg benar n salah.

apakah dengan alasan ini aQ menyakitiNya? kini aQ pun ngerasa sangat bersalah. apakah dengan kata-kata ini Ia akan mengerti aQ? aQ ngerasa ada yg salah. apakah dengan ini aQ bisa berubah.? salah totaaaaaaaaaall..

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Catatan Harian 20 Maret 2010

aQ seperti sedang berhadapan dengan sebuah bulan yang indah.. ia begitu terang dalam malamQ, menyinari hutan dan jendelaQ. demikian indahnya pula ia buat dalam hidupQ. ia bulat, tak berliku. ia hanya satu dan satu"nya. ia milikQ dan di sisiQ. ia seakan menari di sekelilingQ dan aQ seakan tau tentangnya. keceriaan dan senyumnya melengkapi jiwaQ. bahkan sang surya senantiasa menyertainya untuk menemaniQ dengan indahnya yang tak terelakkan. namun terlintas suatu kehampaan yang luput dari pandanganQ. di saat kegelapanQ kehilangan dia, dan yang terlihat hanya kegelapan dari indahnya. itulah yang Qcari dan ingin Qraih. ia seakan membelakangiQ dan merasakan dengan hatinya yang terdalam akan perasaan itu. maka aQ pun tak pernah tau. ia yang paling buruk daripada venus dan saturnus. tapi aQ merasa ia yang terindah bagiQ. ia yang paling kecil daripada jupiter dan uranus. tapi aQ merasa dia yang paling besar pengaruhnya bagiQ. ia yang paling dekat daripada mars dan merkurius. tapi aQ merasa jauh darinya. sayang, apa yang tak pernah aQ tw itu tetap tak pernah aQ tau..

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Terrible Confused

.what should i call this?!

.i'm terrible confused and can't think clearly.

.i have promised to my self.

.it won't be happened again.!

.n i think i successfully made it true.

.it's a lie.

.i can't deny this feeling.

.i knew i shouldn't be like this.

.but as hard as i fight,

.i hurt myself finally.

.how could i face it now?

.i can't ignore everything about him.

.i can't ask him more.

.i won't be selfish anymore n more.

.lie to me.

.fooling myself.

.there's no another pathway to the right way.

.there's only one, darling.

.smile in pain.

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A Lyric

berharap kau kan tahu apa yang Qalami

bagaikan bongkahan baru jatuh menimpaQ

begitu berat tapi ingin Qbangkit lagi

dan...

reff1.

yang Q miliki hanya kamu

Q cari dalam perih

tapi tak Qtemukan kamu

hanya semakin perih

hujan tak berhenti menyergapQ dalam sepi

bayangmu tak jua menyata sekian lama

senyum mereka bagai hanya dalam mimpi

tahukah...

chorus.

begitu terbatasnya waktumu

harus sampai kapan begini

temui aQ sekarang

reff2.

yang Qingin hanya kamu

Qcari dalam perih

tak jua Qtemukan kamu

hanya semakin sepi

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The Real Me

kadanq aQ ngrasa benci banget sama keadaan rumah
yg di dalamnya tak lain hny org" yg tiap hr bikin hidupQ keliatan kacau
bikin aQ emosi, bete, dan sedih abis
aQ uda berusaha utk jadi apa yg mereka mau
aQ korbankan wktu, tenaga, bahkan hatiQ utk mrk
dan yg aQ dapatkan sampai hari ini cm perasaan kecewa,
tak dianggap, tak ada respect sm sekali, tak ada apa"
aQ ingin bangkit. tp dijatuhkan oleh mrk.
sll begitu. gak ada yg laen. aQ sll diremehkan
tiap hari brhadapan dgn mrk, ad 2 hal yg brbeda.
1. klo mrk gak byk omong, aQ ngrasa sayang bgt ma mrk.
2. klo byk omong, aQ perang batin sendiri.
coz "omongan" mrk jarang ada yg bangkitin semangat
rasanya ada prasaan benci sesaat, tp hatiQ blg "gak boleh!"
ya tau lah, tuh kan dosa. makanya perang batin deh
that's why sometimes i'm down with no reason!
pengen "up", kdg berdoa di kamar dan menyendiri berjam" di kmar.


kdg yg aQ pikirkan cm pgn dgr suara dy.


kdg aQ langsung keluar rumah berjam"
kdg yg aQ temukan cm jalan buntu.
dan di saat aQ sendiri di rumah, atau di tmpt sepi
aQ terika sampai tenggorokan sakit dan lega akan cmua beban
stlh itu, aQ bs tersnyum dan kembli mncintai rumah
begitu jg dgn beban" lainnya
who knows it's the real of me?

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A Few Words

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Panda and Polar Bear

i like them so much! ^^

 

hahaha...

it means that we're not different at all.

from a side that not we realized,

shows we possible to be together.

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