Terrible Confused

.what should i call this?!

.i'm terrible confused and can't think clearly.

.i have promised to my self.

.it won't be happened again.!

.n i think i successfully made it true.

.it's a lie.

.i can't deny this feeling.

.i knew i shouldn't be like this.

.but as hard as i fight,

.i hurt myself finally.

.how could i face it now?

.i can't ignore everything about him.

.i can't ask him more.

.i won't be selfish anymore n more.

.lie to me.

.fooling myself.

.there's no another pathway to the right way.

.there's only one, darling.

.smile in pain.