Oh Job

i think so many times about my current job. and i keep asking my mind, "why am i being a teacher?"
it was and still, is a big question in my mind. although i know that i ever dreamed about this ideal, that i ever wished to be a teacher when i was in primary. what a big dream and i never know how big is the responsible to do this job until these last years. i've been a teacher for about 3 years, maybe. and i was stressed out for, as i remember, 3 times. so when i felt down and wanted to leave my job as a teacher, i didn't have any ways out. i ever tried to apply other jobs that only need to sit in the office and stay before the computer, around 10 companies i've applied in. only one company called me back for interview and i came there, but the result was i don't have any skills for this office-job and he suggested me to stay back on my current job as a teacher because all my previous jobs were about education. and here i am!

i think more, to make me sure about this "service" that i have to do in my lifetime. i've prayed and asked so many times to God, is this my way life? and i don't get any answer about another job i can get that out of education world. well, when i was young i ever thought about this: what i want to be? (of course all children think about this, because their parents and teachers will ask them). but why i choose "teacher"?

first. in my young mind, i don't like business because it's too complicated. so many people be cruel and bad because the love of money that they can get much money from their job in business. i don't want to be a bad person, and a businesswoman.

second. i loved my grandma so much. i often went to her house after my family moved to another house (before that, we lived together). she loved to take care of me because she felt lonely. and when my big family went to her house for chinese new year celebration, my grandma adviced me to be a teacher. so sudden and i was shock. she said that teaching is the best job ever to do because you teach the kids to be good. it's an honorable job. my aunts and my mom agreed very much.

third. my mom said that i was so lazy. i was the laziest girl she ever saw. she was wondering my future, what i will be with this bad, very bad habit. in that time, i didn't have any idea and i didn't care about it. so after thinking so hard (maybe),my mom said that being a teacher was the proper job for me. i said to my self, "lazy teacher will make lazy students. mom, i'll be kicked out on the first day i work." but what could i say through my lips? i surrendered all.

for the next reasons, i think all my experiences are enough to say that God did make it for me: being a teacher. i enjoy my days and computer maybe not so good for eyes and sit too much will hurt my bottom.
so thanks God. :)