What Difference Have You Made?

today is the last day of November 2015.

i'd like to say that God has been really good in my life along this year. one month left and we'll welcome a new year.

and in this amazing week, i got a big question from someone that had talked about calling to be a teacher:

WHAT DIFFERENCE HAVE YOU MADE?

i am a teacher. i teach children. i mold some souls, little souls that is in their golden time to reach their proper shape. i realize that each of them is special. unique. beautiful. did i do the same boring things when facing them? did i listen to them when they need me? did i make them realize that they are precious? did i make something different that awed them? that changed their life?

if you are an office worker, archithect, doctor, students, businessman, any role you can be, let's make a reflection in this wonderful ending of the year. WHAT DIFFERENCE HAVE YOU MADE? in your home, in your workplace, in your neighborhood, in your school, in your network, everywhere! what the people see in you that makes them smiling and silently thanking you for making a difference in their life?

we have a month left. i'm gonna shut this computer down, pray, and sleep, and start a new day, a new month in the same year, to not regret what i didnt do. but to thanking what i can do: make a difference, no matter how small it is.

God bless :)

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Lazy oh Lazy

i was looking for a moment in life where i can be a discipline girl with a neat and tidy schedule draft with detailed to-do list things. and i am. *crying in the corner*

since i was in junior high school, i wrote the daily things i wanna do to motivate me in being a better human being. i just looked back on my elementary school life when i got many "compliments" for my laziness: coming late EVERY DAY, never do homework, and lazy to talk with others.  i walked with my poker face so nobody thought i was stressed out of their words. it's funny how it could motivate me to be a more dilligent girl by using the drafts to remind me about what i should do on that day.

the thing is, i failed many times. i mean, i've made the list on the previous day, but as i wrote before: i use the drafts to remind me, not to force me. *oh yeah, that's the point*. when the laziness is coming, drafts will be drafts, they can't yell at me to wake me up from my playing-phone time, or from my leyeh-leyeh time (from Javanese, means being lazy time), or from my day dreaming time *it's still my favourite time*.

so it has been already about 10 years i make to-do-list notes. paper wasted, ink used, thoughts out, and my struggling for being dilligent and discipline still remains.
commitment, consistency, and continuous are what i need. anybody has idea to keep them safe? i got them but i got problems to keep them. :(

God bless

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